8 - Step Into Your Power with Ximy Gonzalez

Ximy Gonzalez discusses how to overcome your Instinct Injury and Step into your power!

We discussed:

12:58

The Context of Power & The Illusion of Control 

18:24

Power and Self Respect

21:00

How Was Our Relationship To Power Established?

31:50

What Steps Can One Take To Reclaim Their Power?

42:30

Why Politician's Impose Their Perceived Power on Others

45:10

The Vampires and The Blood Donors

51:01

Why Do We Blindsight Ourselves?

56:58

The Compliant-Defiant Relationship 

1:00:23

Ancestral Culture

1:11:12

Key Tips To Regain Your Power


You can find Ximy @:
Instagram @Bombshellformula 
Facebook Bombshell Formula 

Ximy would like to give you FREE access to POWER, Module 1 of the SEVEN body basics program. You can claim using this link > https://bombshellformula.com/guest-invitation-form.php?hash=1579714415

You can find Leigh @:
www.bodychek.co.uk
www.skinwebinar.com
www.patreon.com/radicalhealthrebel

Chapters

• 2:39 Ximy's background and experience
• 12:58 The Context of Power & The Illusion of Control
• 18:24 Power and Self Respect
• 21:00 How Was Our Relationship To Power Established?
• 31:50 What Steps Can One Take To Reclaim Their Power?
• 42:30 Why Politician's Impose Their Perceived Power on Others
• 45:10 The Vampires and The Blood Donors
• 51:01 Why Do We Blindsight Ourselves?
• 56:58 The Compliant-Defiant Relationship
• 1:00:23 Ancestral Culture
• 1:11:12 Key Tips To Regain Your Power

Transcript

[00:01] Ximy: I start my book by saying there's many ways to think of why we make the choices that we make. There's many reasons why, but if we were to peel that of possibilities right to its score, I would offer that we would get to the issue of power. Why do we make the choices that we make? Because some way, somehow, it gives us the illusion of power. Wealth.

[00:33] : Welcome to the Radical Health Rebel podcast with your host, Leigh Brandon. If you enjoy the podcast, please leave a five star rating and the warm review. Your opinions are important, and your ratings help grow the podcast and help educate people to lead a healthier, more productive, fulfilling, and happy life. If video is your thing, please check out the Radical Health Rebel YouTube channel, where you'll find fun, bite sized clips from each episode. And now, here is Leigh, the Radical Health Rebel with this week's podcast.

[01:14] Leigh: Jimmy Gonzalez. Welcome to the Radical Health Rebel Podcast. How are you doing?

[01:18] Ximy: Hey, Leigh. Thank you so much for having me. I'm doing great. Thanks.

[01:23] Leigh: Fantastic, fantastic. So today's episode is entitled step into Your Power. Now, today, like many other times in history, we're going through a period of time where many people are only too happy to give their power away. Over the last two and a half years, we've seen the majority of people, especially in Western societies, completely give away their power. Their power to critically think and instead outsource their critical thinking to people in authority, give away their power to decide when and where they can go, what they can and can't wear, and possibly, and most importantly, giving away their power over their health and their bodily autonomy to authority figures. So it really is timely that I have such an amazing guest on my show today, the Columbian Bombshell herself, Ximy Gonzalez. So this discussion is so needed, and I'm so excited to be having this discussion today. But to kick things off, I'd love the Radical Health Rebel audience to get to know you. Ximy so can you tell us about your upbringing, your background, your professional education, and your career to date?

[02:35] 

Ximy: Okay, so I was born and raised in Columbia till I was seven years old, and then I moved to England for three years. Then I went back to Colombia, went to a public sorry, a British school, and then I lived in the States many years. But at a very early age, eight months old, I was diagnosed with asthma, and I was heavily medicated until I was 18 years old. So obviously, going through the medical system, one of the things that I realized is that my freedom as a child was restricted because of my health. So at a very early age, I understood the power of health when it came to our freedom, and it was just like a gift in disguise. And I was on the verge of death multiple times, and one of the things that I learned is that when you breathe in, you assert life. When you exhale, you surrender to death because you don't know if your next breath is going to come in. And that life is what happens between a breath in and a breath out. It just taught me to put things into perspective and to understand that until you learn to stop fearing death, you can't really assert yourself as a living being and really understand what life is and what your freedom is really about and the responsibility that comes with that freedom. So that was a magical gift for me. And so when I was around 18, I decided that I wanted to take my health into my own hands because I understood that medicating my symptoms. And I'm grateful for the fact that at the time it was the tools that we had available that kept me alive. But that was just patching the symptom game kind of a thing. It was never going to help me come to resolution. They told me I needed to learn to live with this, and I was like, I don't think so. I came across a book and then I decided to go on a vegan diet at that time and well, at that moment, it helped me get rid of the asthma. Eight years later, it completely destroyed my health. Okay, but there were so many powerful lessons in that experience because what I understood was that, yeah, we can take our health into our own hands. It's our responsibility. And by making that initial choice, it didn't help me overcome my asthma because the root of it was that I had negative response to pasteurized dairy. So by removing all animal foods, dairy went out. So I wasn't consuming what was triggering it. So the asthma cleared. But I also thought at that time that it was all animal foods that were bad. So I stayed away from everything. And what I started to notice was that my health just went down the drain. But in that process, in those eight years, I became completely enamoured or like I was completely in love with the philosophy. And I became extremely dogmatic. And around that time, when I was about 25 years old so I went on this vegan diet when I was like 18, right? And then when I was around 25, I met Pull Chek, which is our shared mentor, one of our mentors. And I went to one of his lectures. And after the lecture, I approached him and I said, I loved your lecture. I just don't agree that we should eat animal foods. And he took a good look at me and he said, well, however many years of coaching people, I've worked with a lot of vegans vegetarians, and they had this so he goes through this whole laundry list of symptoms. At the time, I was just starting in personal training. I didn't even know what these things were. And at the moment, I thought, how dare you? Like, who are you to challenge my righteousness, my dogma, and all that. But it planted some seeds of doubt. And I'm sharing this because this is a huge part of the power section and what inspired me to write this. And when I was going through a period, I was starting to question, and I started doing a lot of research, it took me about eight months of research to decide to finally put a piece of meat in my mouth. And yes, it was the animals. Yes, it was a health concern. Yes, it was all of these ideas that I had. But what I realized was really stopping me from doing it was that I had totally given my power away to a dogma, to an ideology. It had become almost like a cult for me. And I wasn't following a vegan diet. I was a vegan. My entire sense of self was attached to eating a certain way. And I became so hateful and angry and towards anybody that ate animals, and I was like, okay, this is supposed to be making people more spiritual, but it's making me angry and moody and resentful, and at the same time, it's destroying my health and, like, what's happening here? So it was this whole thing of me being afraid to step into my power and make a decision to potentially save my life because I was so afraid of the backlash from the community that I belong to. Like, the cult. That experience right there was, like, so powerful, because first, I realized that ideas can be a dangerous thing. That second, when you start intellectualizing food and you disconnect from your body, you will dismiss the language of symptoms. And my body was screaming, letting me know through all the symptoms that I was experiencing that what I was eating was not right for me, but because I over intellectualized it and I gave my power away to authority figures outside of me, I completely disconnected from myself and from my body's wisdom. And it wasn't until I decided to start going down the path of curiosity, because I was locked in the arrogance of, I can't do this. And I just became curious. And I remember I put that first piece of meat in my mouth, and they had told me that, if you do it again, your body is going to react horribly, you're going to get poisoned, you're going to throw up. So I was so afraid. And by the way, I need to say this, too. When I cooked that meat, I hadn't cooked meat ever, really. And it was horrible. I made this goulash and tasted horrible. But for the first time in eight years, I felt like I had eaten, because before, every time I ate, I was just feeling like my belly was going to explode. But I was never really satisfied, and I had to eat so much food in here with like a small serving of meat. I was like, satisfied. My belly felt flat. I was like, what just happened here? And it was that beautiful moment where I was able to understand that the body doesn't lie and that I was lying to myself through all this dogma. And that shaped a huge part of my career. And it helped me understand that most people, the way they navigate food, the way they navigate their bodies, is completely through intellectualizing and severing from their bodies innate intelligence and from their bodies wisdom. So I was in fitness at that part of my career. Before I had studied mass communications. And then after that, like sometime after that, I was able to merge my two careers, mass Communications and Holistic Health. And I worked on television and I wrote articles for magazines, all mainstream. I owned the gym. I started working with clients and that came to me for fitness goals. But as we started applying the foundation principles that I learned through the institute, like, they started to go into remission from conditions. So everybody was like, oh, I have a friend that has this and this. Can you work with them? And I'm like, well, I don't know that I can help them, but I mean, I can share with them the same principles that I'm sharing with you and then remission, remission, remission. So then my practice became more about health and then I started to understand, okay, first it was understanding exercise, then it was understanding food, then lifestyle, then the psycho spiritual component and how it also influences our health. So I've worked with people from all walks of life, celebrities, people that were sick, et cetera. And then today I educate Holistic Health and fitness professionals about how to heal their painful relationship with food and body image. And then I've created the Seven Body Basics program and the Bombshell formula. And the Power conversation is the foundation and the start to that Seven Body Basics program. So I guess leave that. That's like my introduction.

[12:30] Leigh: Fantastic. Perfect. So I'm pretty sure the radical Health Rebel tribe got a good feel for who you are. So in the context of our discussion on Power today, can you define what you mean by power?

[12:45] Ximy: Yeah, I think that before I even get to that, I would like to give a little bit of context so that this makes more sense what I'm going to be talking about throughout the conversation and it will allow me to define power. So as I said, I was working with people from many different walks of life and you would think that they all had at the root, very different issues. But what I started to realize is that if they came to me for weight loss or because they were under a lot of stress or because they had a health condition or something, I started to realize there's like this common denominator, but I can't find the language to explain it. And one day, I was reading a book called Women Who Run with the Wolf. Fantastic book. And I saw two words instinct injury. And at that moment, everything just like, made sense to me. This is what I'm seeing in myself and clients and family and the collective. And so I'd like to give like a little definition of what that instinct injury is. So instinct injury doesn't just refer to our instinct. It's an umbrella term that covers all of our inner guides. So it's our instinct, innate intelligence, intuition and integrity. And what I realized was that all my clients were walking around with a broken inner compass, meaning they were disconnected from their inner guides. They had learned to give their power away to the people and the things outside of them. And there was no real connection with themselves and within. So when you are in that state, you know that you can't take care of yourself, that you can't protect yourself. So it's like spiritually, you're regrets to an infantilized state and you start projecting mom and dad onto the institutions outside of you, the people outside of you, to give you guidance and tell you basically what to do and how to manage your body and how to manage your life and like, everything in life. And so I realized that what I was dealing with in my practice was instinct injured people who could not trust themselves, who could not trust their bodies, who could not trust their inner guidance, and they were regressed to an infantilized state. So with that understanding, now I can start answering what power means to me. Most people think of power and they think of having a sense of control. So what the mainstream understanding of power is to me is just really control. And that's something that they try to seek from the world outside of themselves. Okay? For me, power is something that is innate, something that no one can give you and no one can take away from you. I start my book by saying there's many ways to think of why we make the choices that we make. Okay? There's many reasons why I say, but if we were to peel that onion of possibilities right to its score, I would offer that we would get to the issue of power. Why do we make the choices that we make? Because some way, somehow, it gives us the illusion of power. Well, control. And so that is where most people are lost in sacrificing themselves and their values. Because most of the time they don't even know what their values are, so that somebody else can give them the illusion of power, which is really just the form of control. And control is just an illusion. And most people, instead of going inside themselves, self exploring and discovering what their values are, and learning to maintain integrity around those values, limits and boundaries around those values. They only know the values of the world outside of them. And so they're like in this limbo of all of these values, okay, I'll go down those values so they don't know how to maintain integrity and protect those healthy limits and boundaries, and they just give their power away to anybody that they think is going to keep them safe in their illusion of control. So power is something that comes from within. No one can give it to you. No one can take it away from you. It's inherent and it's your birthright.

[17:32] Leigh: Got you. So in the context we're discussing today, power, if I'm going to paraphrase you, it's all about getting in touch with who you really are, your own core values, and doing things that are right for you and those that are close to you as well. And I guess to a degree, to the whole of humanity, rather than relying on someone who wants to control you.

[18:00] Ximy: Or that you want to control. Yes, but that's a really good way to define it. And I think that I want to bring something else into that, and I want to bring the word respect in. Because for me, power really comes from when you learn to respect yourself until the degree that you respect yourself, you respect others. It's like all we have been taught in this world is too dishonoured to disrespect ourselves. And in the process of doing so, we disrespect like others. We disrespect the environment, we disrespect everything that's around us. We're broken. But when you go inside yourself, when you self-discover, and when you make choices based on the energy of self-respect, you're talking about a completely different vibration. Like, even if we talk about love, like, oh, I want to love myself. Yeah. So I've worked really hard today, so I'm just going to go and love myself by eating these chocolates that I know bloat me, make me gassy, and make me feel horrible. Okay, yeah, I'm going to love myself. Let's just change the word love for respect. If you say, I'm going to respect myself and I'm going to go and eat these chocolates that make me feel like absolute ****, can you do that? No. Well, I mean, I guess you could, but you would override the concept of respect. You're not respecting yourself, you're not respecting your body. And maintaining your power is about maintaining self-respect. And with that self respect, it's about honouring not just self, but the collective got you.

[19:49] Leigh: Yeah. So to a degree, what you're also saying is without having that self love or self respect, you know the old saying that you can't give what you don't have? Right. So if you can't give that to yourself, it's going to be more difficult to give that to someone else in the right kind of way.

[20:10] Ximy: Correct.

[20:10] Leigh: Right. Because of course, we do have people that perhaps give their power away, but then the way they try and get their power back is by doing things for other people as well.

[20:19] Ximy: Code dependency.

[20:21] Leigh: Yeah. So how do we learn to surrender to our power?

[20:28] Ximy: Well, I think that in order to answer that again, I'm going to need to give some context because remember that as I'm presenting this information, I'm using language. But what I'm doing is I'm kind of doing something similar to what the government is doing now, changing definition of words. So I'm just going to give a little bit of context to this. So basically I think the first thing that we need to do is we need to go back to how our relationship to power was established. And so this obviously brings us back to our childhood and our upbringing. And as I understand it, when we're born, we are born with unlimited potential and that's part of our birth right. But it's like, imagine that you come to this planet and you have like a trust fund, like all this power, these gifts, everything. But you're an infant, you can't even feed yourself. So your caregivers, your parents are meant to manage that power for you, those resources for you. And as you go through your development, they're meant to teach you how to manage that power. They're temporarily managing that power for you. But they're giving you the tools so that you can manage your power for you. And that should be coupled with rites of passage, rights of passage. Oh, now you've learned to manage a certain level of power. Now you're ready to go into a higher level. Higher level. Higher level. So as I understand it, from a functional perspective or a respectful perspective, the act of parenting is the temporary management of an individual's power while giving them the tools and the understanding of what their power is so that they can step into that power. But if you were not given that opportunity in your upbringing, you can't parent another one with that understanding, if that makes sense, unless you go through the whole process of understanding. Now let's go into the other form of parenting, which I refer to as the painful parenting model, which is what archetypally like. In my experience, I haven't worked with the 7 billion souls walking the planet, but in my experience, the ones I've met and have worked with, this is how they've been raised. Because the parents were not given that opportunities to self-explore, to discover self, to set limits and boundaries, to know who they are, to trust themselves, their inner combat and all this. And they just learned to externalize the world. What happens is that the way that most of us were brought up was we were taught to not go inside ourselves. If we did, we probably were punished. Shame, bullied. But what we were taught was to see the world through the eyes of not just their parents, but the television, the teacher, the church, et cetera. Et cetera, and create a reality around those values. We were taught that our sense of power came from complying with those values. Okay? And what we learned at a very early age was that we needed to give up who we were, our needs, our individual needs to please our caregivers or whoever we thought of as people who were in positions of authority. And we learned to people please. And we severed ourselves from our values, from our limits and boundaries, from our inner compass. It's one of the reasons why it's so hard. And I would say both men and women, but especially women, set limits and boundaries because we learned that if we surrender ourselves, we sacrificed ourselves and we became who we thought others wanted us to be. We would beloved. And so that would give us the illusion of power. It would make us feel like we were in control. If I become who I think you want me to be, then I own the illusion that I can be in control and that you won't leave me or that you will love me or that you'll give me this or that you'll give me that. But what happens is that and I'm just going to give an example to kind of bring this close to home. So I imagine that you're a child and you decide just a very superficial example that you want to play, I don't know, soccer. And then your mom is like, no, you're not going to play soccer. You're going to be, I don't know, a gymnast. So every time that you show any desire to connect with what you feel as you're calling your path of playing soccer, you get shamed bully or you don't get paid attention to whatever. But then when you get taken to gymnastics, you get given all the love, all the affection, all the attention. And this is how slowly we learn to prosecute ourselves and to create very weak or non-existent limits and boundaries. I want to throw something in here to give even more context as I understand that the role of the mother or the feminine energy, depending on who played that role for us in our upbringing, is to inspire. So it's like, come on, you can do it. Let's do this. We can clap, whatever. And then the role of the energy, the masculine energy or the father possibly, is to validate and help you assert yourself. So wow, you clap, right? And what's happened is that parents did not inspire and validate us to self-explore, but they inspired and validated us when we gave our power away to others. And so something very interesting happens. And that is that when somebody imposes something on you initially you're going to comply. You're going to be in that centralized state. You're going to comply. Yes. And then you're going to realize you gave yourself away and then you're going to defy. You go into the teenage face and you defy. And most people, because they were not invited inside themselves, they were not invited to self-explore and learn how to assert self. They get lost in complying with authority figures, defying authority figures, and they think that in defying, they are asserting themselves. But it's two sides of the same coin, because you're still governing your life by the authority figure to comply or to defy. It's still that authority figure that's imposing how you live. And that's just control dramas, power struggles. So what I've understood, and this has been greatly thanks to the work that I've done with John McMahon, is that this is asserting self is about self exploring, self discovering connecting with what your values are and setting some healthy limits and boundaries around those values so that you can maintain integrity of self, so that you can learn to say no and not feel guilty about it. So doing all that is, in my understanding, power and everything else, whatever carrot they've dangled in front of you, whether it's credentials like status, metals, beauty, whatever, everything is dangled in front of you that you're chasing that is outside of you, and you think that that's going to give you power, it's going to give you the illusion of control. And just like they gave it to you, they could take it away from you. But going inside yourself, self-exploring and discovering your power, what you're made of, having gone through your rites of passage and stepping into yourself and really asserting yourself, that, as I understand it, is power.

[28:32] Leigh: Got you. So I guess the question is most of us don't grow up in that kind of environment, right? I can think of my own upbringing. And listen, I'm not definitely not complaining about my upbringing because most people have a lot worse upbringing than I had. But when I think back to being a child, I got praised when I did well at school, and I got praised when I did well at sport. That's kind of what I identified with, being a good person, right? Get good grades, do well at sport. I imagine a lot of people will have a similar experience. It might not be square. Right? Exactly. So if someone is an adult now and they're in that position where they've given away their power, what the steps that they might need to go through to reclaim their power?

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[31:50] Ximy: Yes, I think that that's such a powerful and timely question. But what we're all going through, I think that with the understanding that I've shared, it's so easy to see what's happened and how easily it was to infantilize everyone and get them to externalize their power and even surrender their bodily autonomy and everything. And I think that the first step, as with anything, is the awareness. The awareness and the awareness with a very compassionate understanding that it was necessary. And that oftentimes, and this is something I learned from Paul Check we have to experience what isn't losing ourselves so that eventually we can be motivated and develop a sensitivity to recognize what is respecting ourselves. And so, having lost ourselves, it puts us in a place in our life where we're experiencing some very painful consequences. And I would offer that consequences are the best teacher. It's like one thing is to tell someone, don't do this because blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. And another thing is to be in that situation, experiencing the pain of the situation, that will teach you, not everybody, because some people need an extreme amount of pain in order to question and learn. And that's okay. That's part of the journey. But I would say that, first, recognizing and becoming aware. Second, having compassion for the process, understanding why it was necessary. And I think that third thing would be the curiosity to explore life beyond compliance and beyond defiance. And how do we. Do that? Well, it's about going inside ourselves. I want to ask all of your listeners a very important question and that is if you ask yourself when you put things on a scale, how much time, energy and resources have you invested in learning about the world outside of you? Versus how much time, energy and resources have you invested in learning about you? That question is powerful in itself just because it allows us to put things into perspective and that if we want to step into our power. Yeah, I mean, obviously I'm not saying don't see the world outside of you, that would be delusional. We interact with the world outside of us. But wouldn't it make sense to learn about us to go inside ourselves? So this is what I invite people to do. And that is the purpose of my work is to invite people inside themselves, give them tools so that they can self-discover from the energy of compassion. And I bring that into the equation because a lot of people are very afraid to go inside themselves. Because when they start going into their shadow, the things they don't like to see about themselves, the way that they parent themselves is the way that their biological parents or the caregivers parented them. Most people like let's say that if they say oh, I've gotten myself lost in drugs or sex or whatever, if the child part of me reveals that to the adult in me, meaning the parent that I projected my parents onto, I'm going to bully, shame, criticize. And so that little child is going to feel afraid and it's going to hide again. So if we actually learn to repair ourselves and we look at that child and we ask that child what did you need to do in order to survive? Because all the shameful and painful things that we have done oftentimes have been to survive because we didn't have other strategies. So if we can start self-exploring not from the energy of the judge archetype that condense and blame, but from the energy of the curious child and just come in at it with curiosity and be like hey, well I wonder why I did this, I wonder why that? And then learn to start talking to ourselves the way that we would have liked to have been spoken to by our parents. And for me, I don't know for anybody else, but I know that for me it would have been from the energy of respect. So the way that I've learned to self-explore, to connect with my little girl and her shame and her fear, it's through the energy of respect. And I think that that has been so beautiful because to the degree that the parts of me, my little girl have felt safe, they have been able to open up a whole world of shame and fear. That's what we refer to as hidden shame and fear. You can't see it consciously, it's not there. It's all the stuff that we have suppressed and that we have hidden and what it's actually in the driver's seat of our lives, driving our life for us and getting us into a whole bunch of trouble so that we experience consequence. We're able to go inside ourselves, discover what we're really hurting over, repairs ourselves from the energy of compassion and have the ability to do some serious healing. And when I say healing, I don't mean your life is perfect because you went through a process that means you've now developed tools. You've developed an awareness that allows you to navigate from the energy of power, not the energy of control, the energy of victimhood, et cetera. So I think that if we summarize that it's first having the awareness, it's second developing that empathy and compassion and understanding the purpose. The third is repairing things ourselves in the way that we would have wanted to have been parented. And I think the fourth is just doing the whole process from the energy of respect.

[38:18] Leigh: So it sounds like there's a series of tools that people can use, but like any tool, it's not going to work unless you actually use it. Right. Cool. Excellent.

[38:33] Ximy: One of those tools, if I may offer, is journaling.

[38:35] Leigh: Sure, right.

[38:38] Ximy: Journaling. Because it's about creating a very intimate space between the parts of us that are conscious and the parts of us that we've hidden in a little closet that are ashamed and afraid and it's creating that bridge between those two worlds. But as I said, to the degree that you're able to create a safe space for those parts of you to come out of the darkness and into your awareness, that's I think the most challenging thing with that school. But it takes practice and like you said, it's about you got to put it to action. You can't just have it as a concept.

[39:15] Leigh: So I guess it's like a lot of other things. You can learn some tools to use, but the more you use them, the better you get at it as well.

[39:25] Ximy: Correct. And that brings me to one of the things that I learned from Paul at the institute. Like us check practitioners, we're very curious and we see Paul's Holistic understanding and just how many topics he's gone into. And a lot of us get very seduced into wanting to explore all these different things. And I remember that once he said to us, he said, become a master and focus your attention. It doesn't mean don't see the bigger picture. It doesn't mean that explore the other things while developing mastery in the area that you want to. And so what this is it's about becoming masters of self. It's like you need to learn how to master yourself. It's not about dominating other people outside or having other people dominate you. It's about the self mastery. And that requires the discipline to sit down and do the work every day and to commit and to actually take action. Like what you're saying, it's about focusing your energy. And it's like think about if you learn to master yourself. I mean, I don't know that we ever will be, like to a full extent, but at least if you become curious about the process and start the journey and you actually get into it every day, well, we're going somewhere.

[40:53] Leigh: Yeah. So it becomes a practice, really, or a way of living.

[40:59] Ximy: Yeah. And I like to invite people to make a time with themselves every day for their empowerment, just like you make a time with the client or an appointment like we've made or whatever. And those things are non negotiable. What I would invite everybody to do is to set up a time in their day, which is my time for power, which is my time to go inside myself, to self discover and to rescue myself from the shame and the fear that is interfering with my ability to step into my potential and make that non negotiable. Have your limits and boundaries around that so you can maintain the integrity of that practice.

[41:43] Leigh: So almost become a ritual, really? Like a daily ritual?

[41:46] Ximy: I would say that that's a perfect way to describe it, ritual.

[41:52] Leigh: While she was talking, then I was kind of thinking, wouldn't it be great if the world's political leaders would take your advice? That's probably another podcast.

[42:05] Ximy: It's really good that you brought that up, because the way that I've learned to see people is we are all wounded little children dressed up in adult suits, as I learned from John. But one thing is learning it here and then another thing is just really bringing that understanding through experience down here and just really being able to see it. And the way that I see politicians and billionaires and athletes, celebrities, like anybody, it's just like wounded little children who never were invited inside themselves to self-discover and develop an inner relationship to power. And they're just all of us needy little children looking for somebody who's going to give us that illusion of control. So with this understanding, watching the excuse my French **** show that's unfolding, first is no surprise. And second, as I see it, is, okay, why do you have the need to control or own the illusion that you can control another human? How disempowered do you have to be? Because people think, oh, the people in power? No, the children that are engaging in some really painful practices so that they can some way, somehow feel some sense of normalcy or some sense of think about it. You get to a point where you're billionaire. I don't know. We already have trillionaires. Wouldn't be surprised after the last year. But you get to that point and you have everything in the material that you possibly buy in half. And you get there and you realize you're still miserable and you still feel disempowered. What's the next step? Oh, I'm going to play dr. Evil for world domination because this is the only thing that gives me some kind of higher purpose. So the question that you asked is, okay, I'm curious about that. What would the world be if we had the opportunity to self explore, to self discover and we learn to feel safe within our own understanding of ourselves, within our own power and we didn't have to keep playing the vampire blood donor dynamic of co-dependency. And if I can just elaborate real quickly on that and think about it. Like if you were not taught to develop power internally, well, you learned to develop power externally. And as I understand it, there are two ways to do that. One is to surrender your power to someone, become the blood donor or to suck the power from another human. And that is the vampire. Look at society and we have the vampires, politicians, whatever, whatever, and the blood donors society and they will suck so much that they will leave you feeling tired and helpless, but they will leave enough so that you are still alive and can still be their source. Taking your power back is about recognizing the co-dependency of that dynamic and becoming curious about a new relationship with yourself. About power that does not involve sucking the life from another person or surrendering your life force to another human. But becoming your own source and going from co-dependency to interdependence where we have symbiotic relationships and it's a give and take and we're connecting and role contributing to each other's lives instead of this centralization of power. And how did we get here? Well, let's look at our upbringing. It was taught to us in our home to give our power away in school. Oh, you regurgitated what? I said you get a happy face. Oh, you challenged me. You get an F and a sad face and then you go into college and then you get a degree and then you go to work and then you get like a salary and a raise and a promotion. And the system that has been established that the politicians are thriving on in academia and all the institutions is that the model of education or indoctrination is based on instinct, on creating instinct injury, disconnecting us from our inner compass, from our instinct innate intelligence, intuition and integrity. And as we disconnect from that, from being our own source, we plug onto all the institutions to manage our power for us. So it's a match made in heaven. It was designed, I'm guessing with that very intention and well, look at where we're at. So that is quite literally the matrix. Is it a movie, a sci-fi movie or a documentary? Like you wake up one day and you realize that you are being sucked on from every angle, from every institution in those little pods and one day you wake up and you're like, I'm the source of this evil system. They are functioning with my vital energy that the divine gave me to come here and create an absolutely beautiful life, not just for myself, but for everybody else.

[48:12] Leigh: If you're talking about the system, the system was designed by the vampires, right?

[48:16] Ximy: Correct.

[48:18] Leigh: They want the vulnerable people to suck their blood, and they don't want people like us to upset that system.

[48:26] Ximy: Correct. Because it's literally the battery of the system. And what I find really fascinating is that they are collapsing their own little system that they created so that they can now roll out their little reset their new system. And the question is, okay, are you going to give your power away and step into that? Or are we going to become aware of okay, first time we did it, completely unaware. But now that we know, are we going to participate in that? And I think that's because they need our consent, they need our participation. And as I understand it, this is why they put all of these things out in the mainstream books, movies. They need our consent. This is why they got so far with what they did the last two years. And where we're at, where we're at now. You're going to start seeing the wolf dressed, the sheep opening up its mouth like you can see the teeth now. And the question is, are you going to blind set yourself again, play Hansel and Gretel and be like, oh, the wolf, or this old lady just wants to keep me safe. It's like, really? Are we going to do that again now after we've seen and the people like yourself lead, that was trying to warn people for the last two years about the predator, but you started to realize that people were instinct injured. They couldn't smell the predator.

[50:20] Leigh: Yeah, they almost to me, it feels like there's people on a railway track and you can see the train coming, and you say, Get off the railway line. There's a train coming. Oh, you're a conspiracy theorist. There's no train. Right? It's exactly coming.

[50:42] Ximy: And that's such an important point, Leigh, because I think that brings us to something so powerful, and it's that why do we blindside ourselves? Why do we see the train coming and have people, for example, like you, warning that the train is coming? And why do we because moving away from that rail track involves questioning every institution, all the people that we gave our power away to that manage our power for us. And it requires that we go inside ourselves and that we start healing that broken inner combat, and we start self exploring, and we start owning responsibility. And I love that word so much, the ability to respond for self instead of outsourcing it and blaming others for the consequences of our choices. Part of the reason why people don't like responsibility is because the way they parent themselves is through blame. And so it was my fault. But if I just make someone make the choice for me, then I'm okay with that. That's a child ego. Yeah. They'll be responsible. I'll blame them. I'll get angry with them. I'll sue them. You fill in the blanks. You blindside yourself. You end up in a situation like a rape victim. And then one day you realize I rate myself through my naiveness and through me, blindsided myself and my own instinct injury and telling myself fairy tale stories of saviours and anybody that's interested in keeping you safe. Police.

[52:34] Leigh: Yeah. I think what's particularly worrying for me is that people that are in that position and they are parents at the moment and you kind of think, well, what kind of world do you want your children to grow up in right now? You would kind of think that that might spring them into action. But as you said, it's a scary place for them to go. And to take responsibility means that if they get it wrong, they have to own up to themselves that they get it wrong. Right?

[53:07] Ximy: Yeah. And that requires humbleness. The thing is, I think another thing is two words humility and humbleness. And the thing is that as I understand, humility is from the energy of humiliation. Humbleness is from the energy of power. I've recognized that I haven't you know, like that I've blindsided myself that, okay, I'm going to be humble so that I can become curious now that I've been humble. Step out of that arrogance and just be curious and ask myself, okay, what is life beyond this compliance? Defiance with humility is like that. Energy efficiency is when the universe just ******* banks you in the butt and throws you on your knees and you're in that place. So you can do it that way through arrogance. The university needs to drop you on your knees, or you can kind of do it the other way, which is through humbleness and the recognition of, okay, well, I blindsided myself and these are the consequences. And it is my job and my responsibility to heal my broken inner compass to start learning about myself, trusting myself and to recognize that we live in the world of polarities and that while there is what we call good, there is also evil. And that we're living in those two realms that every choice we make is, do I choose evil? And that is enabling the vampire and using our source to feed it our energy, our blood through our compliance. Or do I choose to not participate in evil? And look at this is so funny because if you look at all the things that they use to convince people to take the experiment and I'm not speaking about this from the Catholic perspective, but I'm just talking about the seven SIDS. So it was gluttony. So you'll get some free Dunking Donuts if you come in for this, the dangling, the carrot. Oh, you can come to the strip club lost and get your experiment here. Oh, I'm feeling envious of the people that they actually wrote articles. I feel envy for the people that have taken it. Appealing to envy, the pride. Oh, look, I'll put it on my profile picture and I'll virtue signal and show how all of you are lesser beings because you didn't do it. The greed. And it's like, oh, the lottery, you're going to win the lottery or invest in this technology. The wrath towards the people that chose not to take it. Do you see what I mean?

[56:01] Leigh: Absolutely. One of the things that I saw a million miles away was they were saying, oh, look how many people have had the experiment? And those of us that can stand in our own power, we're like, yeah, but that's not for me. Right, but then those people that aren't able to stand in their own power, oh, well, I must get it because everyone else is having it. And I could just see that a million miles away. And I'm like, that's just such a childish trick. But sadly, a lot of people fell for it.

[56:36] Ximy: They understand the compliance, defiant relationship and the need to fit in. You see, if you don't have your limits and boundaries, if you don't know who you are, who you are is the collective, the tribe. So that is what's going to dictate what you need to do. And look, we're moving into communism, disguise that's collectivism. And so the rights of the individual get trumped by the rights of the collective, which is what they've said all throughout this. They're throwing all the communism bits by bits. If you don't understand the agenda, that that's where they're headed with this. And you just see these little glimpses here. People can't even recognize. I can see it a mile away like you could, but that is just communist talk. So first thing is to accept this experiment. What if they decide that maybe organ donation is the next step so that you participate in the collective, surrendering your power grid, surrendering your job, giving your children to the state for experimentation, or where does it stop? And the thing is, it's about having the ability to not just see what's in front of us, but to have the ability to discern and see, yeah, they're pitching this with all the benefits, but what are the downfalls? And that's part of the blind sighting. It's thinking that there are no downfalls to the technologies that we have, to the choices that we make, to everything like and again, I bring words again, naiveness and innocence. naiveness is when you blind set yourself. Innocence is part of your power because it's when you're pure in your essence and who you came here to be. And when you're in your power and you're curious about the world and you're this naive is like you blindside yourself because you've given your power away to the people outside of you to guide you. Your innocence. You're being guided by the divine, your naiveness. You're being guided by the predator. And it is through your innocence that you're connected with your instinct, your innate intelligence, your intuition, and your integrity. And this is why the first thing they want to do is corrupt our innocence. Our innocence is our power. Our ability to laugh, our ability to play, or ability to connect, or ability to keep wonder about the world. See, look for the magic and all that. They want to kill that right out of all of us. And if you want an example, just look at the strategy over 2020. You can't connect with other human beings. Your breakfast dangerous now. The sun is dangerous. Like dancing is bad, singing is bad. Connecting with source through whatever means you had is bad. And that's how it's pseudoscientific. But if they separate you from all that, from nature, don't go out to nature. Nature is bad. The bugs are going to get you. And now the animal foods, they've been going on that campaign for years. They're bad, they're evil, and they're going to destroy the environment. And it's like psychological operation after psychological operation after psychological operation. That's why I invite people to go back and study ancestral cultures. Even with this, I love it so much about the rites of passage, an ancestral culture that understood the tribe. They understood that every member of the tribe needed to be strong, not easy prey. And so the way that they were raised was to know how to be fully instinct healthy and know how to survive and know how to recognize a predator and find power within themselves. Example in a certain tribe, they would take children from their mother, like in the middle of the night at about the age of seven or eight. Yes. They had been giving them a whole understanding of how to hunt and how to do things and survive with their bare hands out in the wilderness, seven or 89, whatever, around that age. And then they would take them from their mothers in the middle of the night and they would be dressed like the elders of the tribe, the father, they would be dressed as demons. They would take the child from the mom and then they would take them to nature, leave them there, and have the child survive. So the child survived. They would come back to the tribe as a strong member of society that understands, I've got my back, I can take care of myself, and now I can become, as an interdependent member of society to participate and keep the tribe strong. Right? And then now what we have today is a whole bunch of instinct, injured little children crying because somebody doesn't call them by a particular pronoun and making you psychologically weak and dependent on the approval of another person that your sense of self is attached by whether someone wanted to call you a he, a she, or whatever it is. You can call me a ******* alien, I don't care. I know who I am. You don't need to give me my title or my pronoun. But they've built an entire society and weakened us with craft, food, sedentary lifestyle, complete code, dependence on the system, like just everything to make us weak and to turn us into easy prey. Do you think they would have been able to pull this off back in the 1800 or anything like that, where men were more instinct healthy and women and they could recognize the predator?

[01:02:43] Leigh: No chance.

[01:02:44] Ximy: No chance. They needed to do it gradually and just destroy us, psycho, spiritually, physically and weaken us. And when you start seeing it that way, imagine you knowing how to hunt, knowing how to fish, knowing how to grow food, knowing how to build your own shelter, knowing how to manage your own power, understanding that you got this, you've got your back. How can they control a society like that?

[01:03:19] Leigh: They can’t!

[01:03:19] Ximy: They can't, but then they take you to school to teach you to be compliant and to brainwash you. Why weren't we taught to grow food? Why weren't we taught to hunt, to build shelter, to oh, because we're in a modern world and really, no, they don't want people being self-relied on how to collect rainwater, how to listen to your body, how to know how to nourish your body, how to self-discover, how to journal, how to process trauma. Why weren't we taught that in school? Because we needed weak mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually, intuitively, fragile beings to control and to use as batteries.

[01:04:00] Leigh: Taking the meat away from us will certainly make us weak.

[01:04:03] Ximy: Oh, yeah, believe me, I started the conversation speaking about having been in that situation, experiencing veganism eight years in my flesh and blood. How ironic and knowing how it weakens you and that this is the path that they're telling you to follow in the name of health and for the planet. It's like you can't even tell them it. And I think to myself, that was the biggest gift ever. Because had I not had that experience, maybe I would have fallen for the meat as battery or I would have had like my second guessing. I've worked with so many vegans and vegetarians that were experiencing all the same stuff that I was experiencing, from the dogma to the physical symptoms to everything. And now they want to turn everybody into easy prey by giving them fake food, feeding them insects. I was reading some reports that they're a huge source of potential parasite exposure.

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Yeah, what's quite interesting as you've been speaking, I've been trying to think because I definitely grew up very, very compliant. I was right in there, I was a really well-behaved kid, probably annoyed other kids because I was that well behaved, very compliant through my twenties. And I do remember I actually went to college with a guy and I remember he used to tell me stuff and I used to think, you're talking nonsense. And I think what really got me thinking was 9/11. I think that was what really flipped the switch for me. And I think the next five years I kind of went on a real search for truth, I guess. And obviously I spent a lot of time with Paul Chek during that period as well, so I had him to ask a lot of questions and also his book under the Veil of Deception.

[01:10:01] Ximy: Oh yeah. That's a great book right.

[01:10:03] Leigh: Which for the listeners. If you haven't read it. It's definitely worth a read but it's mainly about the food industry and the corruption around all that kind of industry and then it was quite interesting that I almost became the complete opposite. Right. Not in a bad way. But obviously the name of this podcast is The Radical Health Rebel and my rebel archetype is very strong in me right now because I'm rebelling against inauthentic authority. It's not real authority and my rebel archetype can see that. And I guess it's one of the reasons why I started this podcast because I'm trying to shine the light on the reality of what we're going through at the moment.

[01:10:49] Ximy: Yeah.

[01:10:52] Leigh: So in terms of a health perspective, if someone's listening to this and identifying as someone who's not listening to their true self, who's not spending time with their true self, what would be the key tips for those people, would you say?

[01:11:10] Ximy: Yeah. So before I get into that, I want to acknowledge what you said about the Rebel podcast and the rebel archetype. And all of us embody these different archetypes in different times of our life and they serve different purposes for us and there's many different ways in which we can approach the rebel, just like there's many different ways in which we can. Like for example, if I connect with something that makes sense to me, well I'm going to comply because as I've passed it through my value system makes sense, so I'm okay with that. Not killing people. Yeah, sure. I'll comply with that. I have no problem with that. If I see something immoral, it is my duty to not participate in that, even if they tell me it's good. So my rebel archetype will step in and we'll go like, I don't think so, I'm not going to do that. Does that make sense?

[01:12:07] Leigh: Absolutely.

[01:12:08] Ximy: The light of the shadow, the challenge with the compliance and the defiance is when we are in blind obedience, blind disobedience. And that's so important to bring out because we're having this conversation about compliance, the finance and the power and all that. And one thing is to just kind of go revel without a cost, just because another thing is to look at the situation discern and go, I am not complying with this. It's immoral.

[01:12:48] Leigh: And it's obviously going against your own core values as well.

[01:12:51] Ximy: Right, correct. That was the way I see that. That's about maintaining the integrity and your limits and boundaries of knowing, this is my body, I'm a sovereign, there's no way that I'm going to surrender my bodily sovereignty and autonomy to anybody. So for that perspective, it could be seen as a rebellion. You know what it is. But again, it's the consciousness of it. Right. Because think about it this way. When it comes from. And I just really want to clarify this because it's such an important point. If you come at it from the energy of compliance. The blind obedience. You're going to be in compliance and you're going to want to do everything that these external authority figures tell you and you will defy anybody who challenges the external authority figures and rebel against them. Does that make sense?

[01:13:50] Leigh: Absolutely. We've seen a lot of that, haven't we?

[01:13:52] Ximy: Yeah. And then there's again, like examples, like for example yourself, you kind of looked at the situation and you went, this doesn't make any sense. My nature is to want to do the right thing and comply, but I cannot comply with things that are immoral and that are going to lay the ground for tyranny. I'm not going to participate in that in that context or rebel archetype comes in and it knows how to opt out. Right. And in doing so, we are asserting ourselves because we've looked at our values and then here's how I'm going to protect my healthy limits and boundaries. So the compliance and the defiance, that do have a light side to them, if that makes sense.

[01:14:40] Leigh: Absolutely. Yeah.

[01:14:41] Ximy: I just wanted to really clarify that. And your other question was about the food.

[01:14:49] Leigh: Well, I was just saying for people that perhaps have a health challenge right now, almost certainly the reason they've got a health challenge is because they're not in their own power. What would be, some say three key takeaway things that you would suggest that they do.

[01:15:11] Ximy: Yeah, I think that what you were saying about how well, first the 9/11 thing was a mess of wakeup call for you. Oh my God, that's a whole other podcast. But I think that for most people, like it was a massive one because talk about a scam. Yes, and you mentioned also the food. I think that that was one of the biggest ones for me because in studying health and food that's when you really start to unveil the scam, the lies. And in order for you to think, to feel emotionally balanced and stable, you need to be feeding yourself well. Because when you feed yourself well, it allows you to maintain blood sugar balance and that helps with your cognition, it helps with your ability to regulate yourself emotionally. It just helps with so many things. So a huge step in taking our power back in these three that we're going to mention is one about healing your relationship with food. It is what you are made of and with every choice you are supporting the predator and you're turning yourself into easy prey or you are supporting life supporting nature and asserting yourself, your bodily autonomy, your limits and boundaries that you need to have limits and boundaries around this and your food choices. Like a food choice is you deciding what comes into my system to become a part of me. And yet they've convinced us that it's fun and that it's to disrespect our limits and boundaries, our bodies, when we drink or eat things that make us feel like ****. And yes, maybe our taste buds enjoyed because they're engineered to taste good and maybe it gives us a buzz if you feel good for a little bit. But be honest with yourself and ask yourself how do you feel afterwards? How does your belly feel? How does your energy feel? How do you wake up the next day and really let your body guide you? The body doesn't lie as we were taught by Paul. It doesn't lie because its purpose is to help you survive. If your body lies to you, it's turning you into easy prey. You need to have that innate intelligence, your body's language of symptoms, to let you know that the choices you're making are compromising your survival and that other choices that you make fight for your survival. How do you know? Well, because when you make choices that compromise your survival, your body's innate intelligence will speak to you through language of symptoms and make you feel like absolute ****. And when you do things that feel good, then your body rewards you and makes you feel really good. Like we have it inside ourselves. It's part of our inner compass. So part of taking your power back and healing that broken inner compass is about taking your body back, the vehicle that you're going to express your values through in this world. And if that is broken, like I said at the beginning of this conversation, I realized as a little child I had no life because I was sick. And they tried to keep me in that sick, disempowered state, I would have been a customer for life. But it was a curiosity that invited me to start looking for answers in food and start healing myself through food. And that was the first way in which I started to take my power back. So food is huge. I can't even make it justice if I try to explain that to you. Because as you start feeling energy naturally, because you're feeding yourself properly, as you feel clarity of thought, as you're not craving garbage food, as your belly starts feeling good, not gassy bloated, as you have the ability to regulate yourself emotionally, to think straight, you're winning the first step, and it gives you the clarity of thought to see through the ****. This is how good the predator is. Now that you have the awareness week, when you walk into a grocery store, is it kind of like a Matrix experience where all you see is code? You know what I mean? Or like that movie that has the glasses, and they put the glasses on and they see food, and then they take the glasses off and they see what it really is, just absolute poison. And they've convinced us to pay for the poison. And then when we're poisoned and sick, to pay for their solution with more poison. Take the glasses off.

[01:20:20] Leigh: Yeah.

[01:20:21] Ximy: And see what you're participating in. Take your body back. Start with food. And once you start understanding food and going down that rabbit hole, things are going to be so much more clearer because you're going to see the corruption, the collusion, the scam that the institutions are. They have all been infiltrated. I want to share just something very quickly. And it was when I started studying exercise, I understood that I needed to learn food, because just with exercise alone, you can't really do much if you're trying to help someone. So I became curious about that, and I started looking at universities to go and study food. So my first career is math, communications. So I have that journalist instinct and that curiosity to go down the rabbit hole and find truth. So I started researching the universities and the nutrition programs and all that. And then I started to realize that Caleb and General Mills started nutrition schools. And then I started to realize that for nutritionists to maintain their credentials and their licenses, they needed to go to continuing education courses that were sponsored by Free, Delay, McDonald's, Dunkin Donuts. And that's not a conflict of interest. I don't know what is. And then I start reading magazine articles where they start saying, like, yeah, it's okay to eat whatever garbage. Just count your calories. And I'm in my head. And then I'm looking around me, I'm living in the US. At this stage, and I'm looking around seeing people following all these recommendations and just more overweight, more sick. And I'm like, this doesn't make sense. To me. And what I realized is that when you are a child that has been taught to comply, comply with the system, by the time you get to college, you're not really questioning your professors. You're just there from your own heart and your naiveness and you just adopt everything they tell you because you've been taught to comply. And then what you don't know is that there's a whole system that is giving them the information and that gradually they're turning you into a sales rep. This is true for the medical system. This is true for the agricultural system. I've interviewed the Secretary of Agriculture in one of the areas in Colombia and he said to me, what they taught us is that without agrochemicals, you can't grow food. You see what I mean? Like, from my journalistic perspective and the experiences that I've had, and from the perspective as a health consultant, it's allowed me to see these different things. So I made the choice. This is why I decided to study with Paul. I was like, okay, I'm not going to get credentials recognized by the Matrix credentials, and I'm not going to get like a white coat and I'm not going to get probably there's going to be a lot of people that are not going to want to work with me because I don't have the recognized credentials. But I'm going to do this from the energy of integrity, because I am not going to participate in this. Because I have the awareness, had I not done this research, I would have gone in. I'm not criticizing the people that went from the goodness of their heart to participate in the institution. Does that make sense? But what I'm saying is, because I had that other background and I did the research, I was able to go like, okay, well, I don't want to participate in this. So I sacrificed the code, I sacrificed the credentials, I sacrificed the credibility. And I thought, and whoever wants to work with me will work with me, they will care. And I've had such a beautiful career because I was able to stay cantered in my integrity. And that just taught me just how corrupt the system is. Because after that, I kept researching more and more and more. And then you see lobbying paid bribing by corporations to the politicians so that they can pass the laws. They want revolving door policy, which is where you have somebody in the private sector corporations who then goes into the public sector government and then they go back and forth to apply policy and there's just all this collusion. So once you see, you can't unsee. So learn about food, understand your food supply, make choices that honour you, that respect your body. And in doing that, give yourself permission to see all the wizard of Oz and the fake world that they have made you participate in through your own naiveness. So that's step one step two is make it a daily ritual to self-explore and use your journal and connect with people that are inviting you inside yourself to self-discover, not to glorify and to make them. I have all the answers for you. I'm the authority figure, I'm the parent figure. Look for people that give you tools to self-discover, to become instinct healthy, to heal the broken inner compass and to start stepping into your power. And the other thing that I would say is going back and do that with the energy of compassion, understanding that it was necessary to wake you up. Like one of my teachers, John McMullen, his PhD in hypnotherapy, he said whatever put you to sleep is what's going to wake you up. So we need to have those experiences to wake ourselves up because someone telling us often times will not be enough. And the final thing that I would say is let me think of that one for your power. I have a little saying that says healing is committing to truth unconditionally. And I think that part of the reason why a lot of people go in this crazy roller coaster with their health whatever, is because they say, okay, well I understand that this is really not good for me, but I am going to tell myself a story and find a way to justify so that I can keep doing this and that's self deception. So if you commit to truth unconditionally and that is your energy and that is your intention and you're committed to respecting yourself and honouring truth and honouring source and honouring nature and honouring life and all the things that speak truth to you, after a while, being in the world of food is just so much conflicting information. It will drive you insane. If you guide yourself strictly by research and this and this and that, you're going to be lost. So what I realized is, and especially when you understand the collusion and all that and what I realized was who speaks truth? Your body, it doesn't lie. Nature, it doesn't lie. I've built my whole thing around learning how to ask your body and learning how to ask nature. And in order for us to do that, we need to commit to truth and allowing nature and our bodies to speak truth to us and to guide us and not deceiving ourselves. Because a research paper said this like steam papers that say that soda doesn't make you overweight and it doesn't make you sick. Well if you want to blind set yourself because you like drinking soda instead of committing to truth and seeing it for what it is, well then there's that. And that applies not just to food, it applies to every area of life. It's committing to truth. And there I would offer that's where you're going to find power.

[01:27:55] Leigh: Amazing. Fantastic. So what's next for Ximy?

[01:28:03] Ximy: Stay as human, as childlike and as authentic as possible. Protect my integrity, protect my innocence with every inch of my being and all the things that are worth living for. Laughter, connection, intimacy, fresh air, the sun, water, nature, putting your feet on the ground, enjoying a beautiful organic meal in the company of my loved ones. Dancing, singing, creating, art, expressing myself, authentically feeling, connecting with my shame and my fear. Connecting with purpose, connecting with source, and seeing how magical this whole chess board is and how it was all designed for our own empowerment. Just stay human, staying curious, staying humble. Connecting with my feminine energy of mysticism and mystery and beauty. And also connecting with my masculine energy of protecting myself and doing something that contributes to this planet and just living a life in balance, in authenticity and not letting myself blindside myself. And stay committed to truth. That's what's next for me, just being human.

[01:29:40] Leigh: Fantastic. Imagine being married to Mark. It's quite easy to be childlike.

[01:29:47] Ximy: Yes, it is like being married to someone who's in his childlike energy. I really appreciate that. That's actually one of my favourite things about Mark is that he doesn't take himself too seriously and he can have a good laugh about things and I respect that.

[01:30:06] Leigh: And of course I will hopefully get him on this podcast at some point as well.

[01:30:10] Ximy: Oh, yeah, that would be awesome. Yeah, that would be awesome. Can I ask you a question?

[01:30:15] Leigh: Yeah.

[01:30:17] Ximy: What's next for you?

[01:30:19] Leigh: So next for me is slowing down. I've had two and a half years of being extremely busy, too busy, and I need to slow down and I'm getting on a bit and I just need to be more. I need to do less and be more.

[01:30:42] Ximy: Oh, that's beautiful. I think it fits really well with being human, being more human, having more time to be present to all the magic that we have around us.

[01:30:56] Leigh: Exactly. And I've got a lot of magic on my doorstep as well.

[01:31:01] Ximy: That's awesome. That's awesome. Thank you for sharing that. It means a lot to hear that other people like are on that path of reconnecting with what matters and what's true.

[01:31:13] Leigh: And I'll have to get you back on this podcast and just check to make sure I'm doing less and being more as well. Hold me accountable.

[01:31:20] Ximy: Thanks for the re invite, please. Thank you so much. I really enjoyed my time with you.

[01:31:26] Leigh: So you've kindly offered the Radical Health Rebel listeners and viewers free access to module one of your Seven Body Basics program, which is called Power. So what I'll do, I'll ensure that the link is in the show notes and I'll recommend to all the listeners and viewers, as soon as you get to the end of this episode, take the show notes and ensure that you download that module straight away.

[01:31:50] Ximy: Yeah. It will help them reinforce a lot of what we've spoken about today and more.

[01:31:56] Leigh: Definitely. Yeah. I've been through some of that, and it's really great stuff. So where else can the audience find you online?

[01:32:04] Ximy: Oh, they can find me on my Instagram at Bombshell formula and also on my private Facebook. Ximy Gonzalez you'll spell that for them? That's a tricky one. Ximy yeah, and that's mainly where they can find me.

[01:32:27] Leigh: Cool. Very good. So, Ximy, I just want to say thank you so much for taking your time out today and sharing your amazing wisdom with the Radical Health Rebel listeners and viewers. And to all the Radical Health Rebel tribe, if you know someone who would benefit from hearing this episode, please make sure that you share the love and forward it on to them. After all, the mission of this podcast is to help people lead a more fun field healthy, productive, fulfilling, and happy life. So that's all from Him and me this week, but don't forget, you can join me at the same time, same place, next week on the Radical Health Rebel podcast.

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